For years and years I wasn’t succeeding to the level I wanted to within my acting career. I was using the Law of Attraction practices like crazy. I was visualising, I was acting as if I had already received the roles I wanted and I truly believed I was good enough. It was frustrating me, as the Law of Attraction didn’t seem to be working, which made no sense as I was and am SUCH a believer.
I needed to figure out what was going on and took some time to look back on all of my goals, manifestations and Law of Attraction practices over the years. I had been following the steps of, ASK, BELIEVE and RECEIVE, which many books, sites, studies and blogs suggest you do. For some reason these steps just weren’t working for me.
The process of figuring out what I was missing wasn’t an easy one. It’s really hard to reflect on ourselves, our thoughts and our behaviours and admit that we are wrong, especially if we’re doing something subconsciously, because that is so hard to identify!
The first thing I realised is that I was missing a step, which is why I added the 4th step of GRATITUDE. (I wrote a blog about the missing LOA step which you can read here.) I had an experience where I was using the Law of Attraction to manifest an acting role filming on the Gold Coast. After asking, visualising and believing, I was able to surrender to the Universe and forget about what I had asked for. (Which is truly surrendering and so powerful in attracting what you want.) A couple of weeks later, I received a phone call from a casting agent offering me a role on a Network show, with no audition needed! I was so excited, and so wrapped up in it all that I just went on with my life, feeling accomplished for the time being.
A week or so later, I got told that they were cutting my role from the series! I was devastated, and again I was so disappointed in this Law that I so truly believed in! After a meditation and a little journaling session (this is what I always do when I’m confused, angry or disappointed), I realised that my desire was taken away from me because I didn’t show gratitude. I wasn’t grateful for the incredible opportunity that had been presented to me. Gratitude is the highest form of vibrational energy, so whenever we can, we should be showing gratitude, for everything big or small in our lives! So I started showing gratitude, even though I had been told the role was cut. I thanked the Universe and my angels for the opportunity and I got myself into a grateful mindset and went on with my life accepting it how it was. Then something crazy happened, the next day I got a call, my role had been written back in!
This was the first breakthrough I had where I realised that gratitude must be added to my personal steps for using the Law of Attraction! It works for me, hopefully it can work for you! (Remember that you can’t attract anything new into your life until you’re grateful for what you have right now. You must make room!)
The second breakthrough took years for me to figure out. It took meditation and really looking at myself, my thoughts and my actions. All I wanted all these years ago, was to land exciting and big roles in shows and films. I wanted it SO badly. I put all of my time, money and energy into it, so the last thing I thought, was that I was sabotaging myself. But I figured out, that I was.
Gabby Bernstein teaches us how love and fear cannot co-exist and how choosing love over fear will always work in your favour. For years, I chose fear. Even though I was telling myself I was good enough, in my heart, I didn’t think I was. I was constantly comparing myself to other actresses and I had a limiting belief that ‘it was a tough industry.’ That is a prime example of a fear based thought! I would constantly tell people ‘oh it’s a hard industry,’ almost because I was embarrassed I wasn’t getting regular and big enough roles and I can see now, that it was a protective mechanism to assure myself that yes, it is a hard industry and that’s the reason it’s not working out.
However, by saying this over and over, my subconscious believed that it was a hard industry. As soon as I realised I had chosen fear over love during these years, I dug a little deeper and I actually figured out an even bigger problem. I was scared of success! HOW DOES THAT MAKE ANY SENSE?! I wanted this SO badly, yet I was SO scared if it were to actually happen! I was scared of being cast in a role I was uncomfortable in, I was scared of fame, I was scared of moving away from my partner and my family. FEAR, FEAR, FEAR. It was me, I wasn’t allowing myself to succeed.
The thing is, fear is very hard to get rid of and even though I have figured out that these particular fears are blocking me, I still haven’t quite shaken them. It’s taking work! Fear can show up in so many ways. Through pain, nerves, judgement, anxiety, self doubt, limiting beliefs, gossiping or negative thoughts. Really try and look at your life, your thoughts, what you’re trying to manifest and what you have successfully or not successfully manifested to work out what is stopping you.
I was blocking the process and not allowing the Law of Attraction to naturally take its course. I wasn’t surrendering and trusting that I would be protected during my successes! I think the most important step in the Law of Attraction is to receive (to surrender). When we surrender, we allow the Universe to do its thing. When we trust the process and stop controlling our desire, that’s when exciting things, people, opportunities and circumstances come rolling on into our lives. If you want something badly, work on yourself first. Make sure you know you’re good enough, and do your best to rid your mind of any fear based thoughts. What is meant to happen will happen if you just believe and leave it up to the Universe.